Shining through the Sorrow

Hello friends. I've had a few emails from people asking for an update on my headaches, so naturally I assumed the whole world wants an update, LOL.   So, here ya go! My latest cure-all attempt was visiting my dentist for a mouth guard I wear at night, in hopes that fixing my TMJ would result in less DAILY headache pain. It worked.   For awhile.   And, now I’m back to having pain.   Every. Single. Day.      It’s pretty ridiculous, really.   And anyone with chronic pain will tell you, it easily leads to depression, and leaves to feeling defeated. I am open to advice, and I know people like to give it, so I’d like to take a moment to re-cap everything else I’ve tried.   In the end, we are trying to uncover the root of the issue, not to necessarily take care of the pain itself…   *Headaches started when I returned from living in Hawaii for two years, in 2003, age 21. *Have seen two neurologists, and have had several scans. *Have been on every type of preventative

Having one of those, “I know I need to blog cause I feel like a hot mess” moments.   So, bear with me.   After blogging about the Jubilee Duggar episode the other day, I decided I HAD to watch it.   So, I gathered a few of my dearest friends and we sat down to watch it.   With sangria.   Even if you haven’t seen it, you can imagine how sad it is.   It’s heartbreaking to even the average person.   The Duggars find out, at a routine diagnostic ultrasound, that their precious baby has passed away.   There is no heartbeat.   After it originally aired, so many of my Infant Loss Mommas had Facebook status updates about how hard it was to watch… What I wasn’t expecting was that it brought back so many memories for me.   It’s been three years  tomorrow , since we had our diagnostic ultrasound for Gabriel.   The day we learned he would soon die.   The day we were told we “should terminate the pregnancy,” and that we shouldn’t feel badly for making such a decision because there was “no w

Have you ever heard that phrase??   Apparently it’s popular at Christian summer camps, when coed teens are combined for fun, fellowship… or even dancing (gasp!)   Just this week I was talking about my blog (which I tend to do) and was explaining to the ladies at my Mom’s Bible Study that not only has writing been healing for me, but it’s also encouraged my own relationship with Christ.   And, that’s because, I’m literally the co-author of this blog. Apparently, I’ve been “leaving room” for the Holy Spirit this whole time!! I can’t tell you how many times I’ve had a rough day, and I’ve just known that I needed to sit down and blog.   Moments later, I have an entire entry made, without much thought or effort.   I truly believe that the Holy Spirit helps me form these sentences that you read. The most amazing part?   As I was sharing this with my friends, a few of them nodded in agreement and one dear friend said that she knows the Holy Spirit influences my writing because th

Almost a month ago now, I had the amazing opportunity to meet Angie Smith! She is married to the lead singer of the Christian band, Selah, and the story of their daughter Audrey is heard through their song " I Will Carry You." (Click here to listen that song, and see amazing photographs from her family.)  I haven't seen it yet, but I just read that the Duggars found so much comfort through those lyrics, that they used them in the episode about losing their sweet daughter, Jubilee. Along with being a mom of, now, FIVE girls, Angie is also amazingly funny - both in person and on her blog, Bring the Rain . She's an author of two books , and although she's very frightened by it, is an amazing public speaker! She's so real, so hysterical, so lovely. I had the great privilege of hearing her speak at the One Day Women of Faith Event in Baltimore, MD... and that's where it happened... I met her! Like, in person! And, got to speak to her! Can't wait to te

Well, friends.  Welcome to my new website!  I have enjoyed blogging so much for the past THREE YEARS, I just knew I had to continue.  It's something that allows me to process my thoughts and emotions, and share life with people I normally wouldn't be able to communicate with.  Unfortunately, my other website continued to have technical difficulties, so I ultimately decided to start fresh.  Although I won't be adding to it, I will keep that website alive and well, so please feel free to direct loved ones there who have experienced a loss and would like to connect with someone going through the same thing. So, I will start where I left off.  Continuing to blog about my life, my kids, my adventures.  Thank you so much for following me over here... -Meg